Bits and Pieces of My Nerdy Life
"Everything from the past, helps to create the person you are today."
My name is Tyler A. Davis, I'm 18 years old and a senior. Basically, I am not your average guy. I am a world class nerd, a football player, a hard worker, a lover of music and I'm not afraid to be myself. This blog is a way of self-expression. I post and publish things about myself and things that I like.
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Audio post reblogged from Snivy used Leaf Storm
why did i search spongebob on soundcloud
WAT
halp Im dyingkfejgfr
d… did we just find spongebob dubstep
huh
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I hate this.
This stupid cycle of depression!
Every day I have the hardest time getting up and getting out of bed, I just want to lay there and whither away into nothing.
People are always asking why I skip school so much, and I just say because I don’t like to come to school. They don’t understand, and they wouldn’t understand how hard it is to motivate myself to come to school to deal with ignorant people who think they are the most important people in world.
I just can’t stand it. So then I isolate myself from people and become even more depressed, then being with people makes want to be alone. Even when my closest friends are over, sometimes I just sink off back into my room where I can be alone because I feel like I don’t deserve to be happy.
Something is wrong with me, and I don’t know what. People don’t like me, girls don’t like me. I hate it! I have lost so many friends, and that is what hurts the most and it just adds to everything.
Every little thing adds up and people don’t realize this. I don’t know how much more I can take. Im sick and tired of this, I’m ready to change.
And then that starts another cycle, I want to change because I’m so damn unhappy with myself and I hate myself, so I want to change and I try. But then I get depressed and fall back into my comfort zone and then become even more depressed because I failed.
I feel as though I can never do anything right, and all I do is fuck up!
I just want to run away and say goodbye to everyone and everything and start over. Even the things that used to make me happy, don’t really make me happy anymore….
What the hell is wrong with me?
